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Arrrgh! I’ve been waiting (emphasis on WAIT) and right about now it seemed like forever. Before, you go 200++ kB/s BUT now you surge less than 40 kB/s!?! What the hell is wrong with you!?! Gawd! (No, I’m not crazy and yes, I’m speaking to my Torrent DLer.) And since you are so stupidly sluggish (I’m still talking to the DLer…), I’m gonna talk about other stuff for the time being. So yeah, I’ve been staring at the computer screen waiting for a certain movie to be DLed. This ‘certain movie’ is some American film with witty Chinese characters and I heard it’s actually pretty cool and pretty useful since the Chinese actors in the film have pretty awesome English grammars and vocabularies. Oh! Hear, hear! I’m actually excited to see this one ‘coz it’s been eons since I’ve watched non-shallow, non-asinine actresses and scenes that will force you to activate your brain cells once in a while. Regarding the Chinese, I really think they have a cute accent especially when they’re speaking in English (with an adorable American tone). I just can’t get enough of it! I just wanna throw myself at them when they chatter so fast with that accent! Mmmm! Okay, this is way too much – bordering on lunacy already. Hmmm… let me check out the “Queen of all Trash-talking Media” Perez Hilton’s site. Maybe there will be some scorching attention-grabbing gossip…

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Natalie Portman. Hmmm… ‘Equating’ burger-munchers (like me!) to rapists, eh?! Not a very smart thing to say, Nat. That’s too much; it’s bollocks! For a second, I actually ‘equated’ your obsession to vegan diet to whacko Tom Cruise’s devotion, even the mere belief, to Scientology. Too much! Tsk tsk.

Miley Cyrus getting nasty… She’s growing up, people! Grow up! Sheesh. (Oh! I just remembered… I love her new song “Party in the USA”! Hahah! Admit it, it’s contagious... “And the Jay-Z song was on! And the Jay-Z song was onnnn!!!” LOL) PLUS the Miley-freak who would apparently kill her cat Fuzzy just to get Miley back to Twitter!! Sister, you have gone off your rocker!

Eeeekkk! So anyway, I just saw the latest photo of Jocelyn Wildenstein and it freaked me out! You know what? I’m really concerned about that lady. Her face is traumatizingly hideous and now I’m rather bothered that Courtney Love is hanging out with her because the latter is also on her way to the Wall of Weirdos. I guess we, human beings, are nonplussed (I just thought of using this word because it sounds intellectual for some reason) whether Wildenstein’s face is yet humanly or what. I mean, she’s akin to a melting plastic Barbie Tranny doll! Okay, so enough with the trash-talking.

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Another topic: yeah, let’s talk about footprints or the imprints left when someone dies. For the past few months, I have been dealing with consecutive deaths and it’s somewhat depressing to mull over it. Yet on a lighter note, the mania after someone’s death is rather fascinating. I was talking to my mom (a karaoke fanatic) while she was having a pedicure and she said she wants to sing this Kenny Rogers song. I was like, “Isn’t he dead already?” And Mom replied, “No, he is not (yet)!” So I was like “Oooh! He’s the epic owner of Kenny Rogers Roasters epic chain of restaurants, right? (like DUH?!) I bet if he dies he’ll be a legend -- just like MJ and Cory Aquino.” Then, I thought of other celebrities – Oprah Winfrey, for instance. I’m certain that she’ll be more than a legend. U.S. will probably declare an Oprah Day in memory of her. I mean, she’s like a saint! She’s done sooo much for humanity. And don’t we all feel just so damn lucky we were able to live in a parallel lifetime with Oprah? The world will surely go nuts – liters of tears tantamount to the Pacific Ocean’s will be shed, and televisions will be featuring her and it will last for months, years even. I’m not sure about the suicidal groups though BUT there will be monuments, tribute concerts, books, aid organizations in her name, and a lot more. Whew… that was long.

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I wanna blog about my ADHD (Attention-Deficit/Hyperactivity Disorder) because it kinda bothers me. For the first time, I’m gonna face and try to beat the living daylights (I just thought it’s about time to use this idiom) out of my own demons, my nightmare. Welcome to the darkside, D. Wow.

Anyhoo, according to Wikipedia, people with ADHD have predominantly inattentive type symptoms. Let’s review the following symptoms to confirm if I really have ADHD:

• Be easily distracted, miss details, forget things, and frequently switch from one activity to another – CHECK!
• Have difficulty focusing on one thing – CHECK!
• Become bored with a task after only a few minutes, unless they are doing something enjoyable – CHECK!
• Have difficulty focusing attention on organizing and completing a task or learning something new – CHECK!
• Have trouble completing or turning in homework assignments, often losing things (e.g., pencils, toys, assignments) needed to complete tasks or activities – errr, CHECK!
• Not seem to listen when spoken to – CHEEEEECK!!!
• Daydream, become easily confused, and move slowly – CHECK! (not sure about moving slow though)
• Have difficulty processing information as quickly and accurately as others – CHECK!
• Struggle to follow instructions. – Hmmm… CHECK?!

Predominantly hyperactive-impulsive type symptoms may include:

• Fidget and squirm in their seats – Hahah! CHECK!
• Talk nonstop – Laladilala! CHECK!!!
• Dash around, touching or playing with anything and everything in sight – It’s fun though… CHECK!
• Have trouble sitting still during dinner, school, and story time – In class and meetings, yeah! CHECK!
• Be constantly in motion – Well, I’m naturally like that. CHECK!
• Have difficulty doing quiet tasks or activities. – Errrr… CHECK???

and also these manifestations primarily of impulsivity:

• Be very impatient – 100% CHECK!
• Blurt out inappropriate comments, show their emotions without restraint, and act without regard for consequences – I have a lot of slip-ups due to my big mouth. CHECK!
• Have difficulty waiting for things they want or waiting their turns in games – Just like what I’m feeling this very moment! CHECKKK!!!! (Oh noessss!)
  

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Hmmm… Seems like I indeed have ADHD... Without a doubt! Hahaha! Should I be afraid? Now, I find this revelation quite disturbing so I’ll go (maybe seclude myself for a while to contemplate) and perhaps check out this 'certain movie' that’s already been downloaded. Yatta! Ta~ta!

Again, that was you reading about a lot of crap and me making a fool out of myself. Thanks for keeping up with me (or at least trying to).


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I miss blogging about boys. Haha! So now I'm gonna reveal...

CHACE CRAWFORD


MATT DALLAS



ZAC EFRON


Aren't they all just dreamy?!? You can take a breath now.
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I never promised you a rose garden

But I could help ease the pain.

I never said I'd make you fall so deep,

It starts to hurt again.

I never did ask for you to love me

Like you never did before.

Forgive me, this time I couldn't help you

And now you're broken once more.

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I'm gonna try my best to answer these ludicrous questions...

CRAZIEST. SHIT. DONE. EVER.

>> Once, I went to church incredibly drunk. I couldn’t balance myself and was half-asleep throughout the mass. I was apparently mumbling words (or gibberish) that I don't even remember. It was crazy. I was a mess. Everyone was looking at me (as if I were some mad clown) and I gave my mom such humiliation. I regret it ‘til now. Hahah!

BEST. ADVICE. GIVEN. TO. SOMEONE. EVER.

>> Never let anyone treat your dreams like they’re for shit.

WORST. THING/S. ABOUT. YOU. EVER.

>> I am enduring BUT I am not patient. I HATE waiting because I get bored to tears easily thus prompting me to behave bizarrely. Also, I am not a fan of text-messaging (and I get a lot of them). I am actually in awe with people who text tirelessly. I don't really check my phone that often so forgive me if I constantly reply late or if I never did respond at all. Then again, if I need to talk to you, I’ll call you.

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I choose to rise up out of that storm and see that in moments of desperation, fear, and helplessness, each of us can be a rainbow of hope, doing what we can to extend ourselves in kindness and grace to one another. And I know for sure that there is no them.. there's only us.

Oprah Winfrey

Let's all pray for the victims of Ondoy.
Heal Philippines.
Have faith, Philippines.

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